I am an 18 year old college freshman who has been in love with the same boy for years.

30th September 2010

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Oh, Tumblr.

I haven’t missed tumblr at all. But every day I wake up, I hate school soooo muuuch moooore than the day before. It’s true. I just spent the last 3 hours doing homework. And not even because I procrastinated! Grrr. But my 8:00 class is cancelled tomorrow, so I don’t have to be there till 9:05! 

My parents bought me a $419 necklace. With a real (large) pearl! 
And I’m going to the doctor next Wednesday to check out my depression issues. We’ve all decided as a group that it’s not self-induced, considering I’ve done everything in my power to remain happy, and nothing has worked. So I’m really really nervous about that.

Today was my last day at work, so at this point everrrryyyttthiinngg is on hold. EVERYTHING.

Goodness. I know I shouldn’t be as happy as I am. I know that life is getting harder and harder every day. And there is so much stress piled around me, and legitimate reasons to be stressed. But every day I feel as though I’m doing a little better. There seems to always be an uderlying feeling of despair, but iz all alright.

And I get to hang out with my Dabit tomorrow night for the first time in two weeks. No words could describe how excited I am on the inside. :D